Forced I was ..to grow up, to move on..
To accept the fact for time there is non..
No more silly stuffs you said you liked,,
With each day passing the words just puffed.
So much work and so less time..
Always in hurry like you did some crime..
Those childish smiles and no reasons to pretend..
How I wished it to never end.
Today I see u smiling sunshine..
Being there a kid with eyes sparkling shine..
I see the one who I lost once there..
With popping eyes you join her now everywhere.
I couldn't stop comparing again, I fear..
You see dear you never let me so near..
You always say it's no big deal..
But how is it not when I feel it so real.
Envy again ripping my heart apart..
I cant stand seeing you with her, so I depart..
Torn between happy and sad,I go dumb..
I stay still embracing numb.
Happy I'm for I can see you smiling again..
But lost is my smile with no hope to regain..
Sitting beside, watching crimson sky so late..
I know now, silence my dear is real soul mate.
Silence is where my pain seems fake..
But no more of this I really cant take..
You are mine and I cant share it ever..
I would rather choose numbness forever.